happiness.

Are you truly happy? Yess? But what is it like to be happy? Are u happy when u have a lot of money? Or are u happy when your married and have kids? I think that your responsible for your own happiness. Everyone is happy in a different way. I mean, at my age, I'll be happy if it is working out on school. Or if I would get a boyfriend. Or that everything at home will solve itself.. But I think that an 20 y/o thinks about that in another way. He/she will be happy with a steady job, a boy/girlfriend and a apartment which they can afford.  And a 40 y/o wants to be married and have some kids, and he/she probably wants to be healthy. I mean at my age (16), u are not thinking about health. At least, I barely do.. It's not good I know. But I have other issues on my mind.. And again, your happiness is involved with you family and friends. Are they the ones who make u happy? Or are u doing it yourself? Maybe your boy/girlfriend is. I guess we'll never know.. U'll know when u are happy, u can feel it. But as long as your not, take care of it yourself.

Make love, not war.

Mara Louise.

love.

Love, it can be something beautiful.. But it can also be painful and ugly. I mean, when you're in love, u feel like you're on top of the world. Nobody can hurt u. It's just u and your boyfriend/girlfriend. U forget about everything around u. You'll be happy every day. U are going to wake up thinking about him/her and going to bed thinking about him/her. But when u get hurt, it feels like your world is going to collapse. U don't want anyone to get involved. U'll push the people who really love u and really want to help u away, and u don't even notice.. U are up on a pink cloud waiting for your love to come back.. But when he/she won't you'll be disappointed again. Love, it has a bright side.. But it also has a really dark side. People are capable of doing really bad things when they're in love. I was in love for once, but I was hopeless in love.. He was also in love with me.. But on one day after almost a year of being in a relationship, he cheated on me.. I was devastated, but I kept my head up.. And now I'm here. I've been in love after that.. But it wasn't as serious as with my first love. The only thing I'm sad about is that people always think that u can't be in a serious relationship at the age of 16. But I do believe in true love, and I also believe in love at first sight. My grandparents met at the age of 15/16.. they're still together.. That kind off relationships make me believe in love. I'll find my true love on one day, I guess.. I hope so tho.. I think about love every day. I mean love doesn't have to involve someone who u want to spend your life with. U are also getting enough love from your friends and family. And I bet your family is not going to hurt your feelings, or break your heart. So when your young like me, don't get your hopes up to soon. The one will come some day, u just don't need to search for it.. It'll come, u just have to wait. U've to show your family how much u love and care about them, they'll appreciate it. Believe me.

Make love, not war.

Mara Louise.

how do u think about it?

Do u ever question yourself how your life is going to be? well I do.. I did today actually.. How's my future going to look? Shall I find a husband who is not going to leave? Shall I have kids? and what about a steady job? You'll never find an answer to those questions until they become reality. I'm young, but I do think about that. At age of 16 u need to make some hard choices in life tho.. I might be a little girl, but little girls also have problems. U've got to control your emotions and feelings. U've got to do your very best at school, and it's still not good enough. You're also surrounding yourself with friends, boyfriends and family. And u want to make them all happy. Sometimes life's hard. But I think you have to look on the bright side of life! I mean, your parent(s) love you, your friends love you and if u have a boyfriend, I'm sure he loves u. You just need to put on a fake smile and deal with the problems u have. I don't mean u need to keep them inside and explode on some day. But I mean you've got to talk about them only with the people u trust and love. The people who u know they're going to be there for u no matter what. Those are the ones u need to keep in life. Don't let them go. Because when u do, it's going to be really hard to get them back. And when u do lose them, do your very best to get them back. Because friends like that are really hard to find. Some "friends" are telling u they're going to be there for u no matter what but when u actually need them, they're busy or they don't know how to help. I know for sure that your real friends know what to do, and make time to even help u. And when they're not, they're not real friends, they're just fake people who just want u to think they'll help u, but when the times there they'll stab u in the back.. Don't fall for fake words and fake promises, because you'll be hurt on one day, and u aint't going to see it coming.

Make love, not war.

Mara Louise.